Late Nights

Whew! My husband has been working late which has been upsetting the kids and putting extra pressure on me. I don't mind the working late- I worked a lot of overtime pre-kids and do a lot of weekend gigs during the summer - but, it's definitely bothering him and the kids, which is a problem for all of us. So, I've been doing my best to make it easy for him (and guilt free), but the kids are upset that he gets home at around their bedtime. And, has been working on weekends.

As for me, it makes me re-think the musician/should I get a real job question. Part of me wants a steady income/job, and part of me doesn't want to quit what I've started and give up this freedom. So, I've begun to halfheartedly look around. Found a music teacher opening at a private school. I should apply, but I have this thing about private schools. I live in Boulder - the schools here are good and you have lots of choice in going to focus schools. So, who goes to this particular private school? Not anyone who lives in my neighborhood! Which is a dilemma for me. I'd like to teach, but don't have a teaching certificate. Which means I can only get a job at a private school. But, that goes against my grain. To get a teaching certificate I'd have to go to school and student teach which would take 1-2 years, lots of money, and I'm 50! What school district is going to hire a 52 year old first time teacher? I could sub. And that's what I should have done this year. But, I was too lazy to submit the application and then I got a part-time afternoon job, so that ruled out subbing most days.

So, I guess the compromise is to apply to sub for next year, hope I don't have the afternoon commitment, and earn some money that way, so I can keep gigging and keep doing the music thing. I'm already getting leads for 2007 summer concerts - a western Colorado tour, which if I worked at it, I could probably extend into Arizona or up through Wyoming. All it takes is a lot of emails and followthrough. I'm good at the emails. It's the follow through that I suck at. And I've never booked a tour before. So, that scares me a bit. Paralyzes might be a better word.

Got to go - Steve's home and almost done reading to Becky.